To Define or Not to Define

I believe my everything is and has been dictated by how I define it; developing my perception and my narrated expectations has proven to be very self destructive. 

Being in a challenging mental state for years, led me to believe it was due to what occurred in my younger years. And 100% that set the preface, but the fact that it still remains in the forefront is due to the rumination of these previous events.

I’ve tried to just delete and avoid thinking on previous events, which doesn’t work or at least hasn’t worked for me. Quite frankly, I don’t think that it’s even healthy for continuance or growth. 

We speak on embracing so that we can learn from the past and grow from the experience. 

I have never related this to my personal life, but to a certain degree I believe I have started this transformation as I have not further duplicated this same pattern.

Through the last years I’ve never been able to see myself clear of that mind block, but as of recently something has changed in me. For whatever reason, my mind has cleared of some darkness and I’m sensing opportunities for growth. 

April 27 (day 90) 

Acts of Kindness recorded - 142,

Push-ups - 11720,

Sit-ups and or equivalents - 12995, 

Kilometers (intentional extra mileage) - 620.46,

Meditation/ inversion table  (min.) - 167, 

Stretching/ rolling (min.) - 286,

Sparring/ grappling (min.) - 78, 

# of forms re-familiarized - 7.0

Form reps - 232, 

Form time (min.) - 678, 

“Mastery” recite (min.) - 81

Blogs - 14