20260104 - Journal entry

 

This past month has been a challenge and I’ve finally given myself the time to journal and reflect.

Alana has gone through another bout and come through as she always does. This all comes with a down side but it’s the perseverance and positive for which to focus and cling to.

Christmas has been busy with family and all the highs and lows that these once in a year events can bring. Again…the focus on the highs and the positives should be the take away.

January first…I woke to barely being able to roll out of bed. My dedication to the last 4 months of my hip therapy and strengthening seemed to have been all for nothing. My rehabilitation gain seemed to have been reset from feeling 97% back to 7%. The honest truth was the feeling of defeat and despair…and why? I’ve put myself through a couple days of work in pain and determination. Not the smartest way to handle this as it has as much negative impact as positive…and usually more of a negative impact to the body than recognized in the moment. But I committed to work, so I feel I must work and push through.

After work yesterday I had a massage therapist appointment. This appointment was with a therapist that I had never been to before. I honestly didn’t care how this therapist approached my condition, I just needed some resolve in my pain. The approach of this therapist was unlike any other I’ve ever attended, but so appreciated, not only because of some pain relief but the realization that therapy and pain relief is not a cookie cutter approach.

Like the therapists approach to my pain relief it was a reflection as to how I’ve been trying to view life. 

Perception and expectations sometimes need to be dismissed, humility needs to be the utmost to allow new insight, change and betterment.

Just a few quotes to which I feel growth owe credit.

* “Humility is not thinking less of yourself, but thinking of yourself less.” – C.S. Lewis

* “A grateful heart is a humble heart.”

* “Humility is the solid foundation of all virtues.” – Confucius

Wishing all a year of growth. Happy 2026!

Jan 04/26 (day 344) 

Acts of Kindness recorded - 1500

Push-ups (& weights to strengthen upper body) - 16800

Sit-ups and or equivalents - 18800

Rehab and fitness - Squats & step-ups started May 28th - 2900

Kilometers (over and above daily function) - 1855,

Meditation/ inversion table  (min.) - 1250

Stretching/ rolling. Physio exercise (started Sept 7) (min.) - 3750,

Sparring/ grappling (min.) - 78, 

# of forms re-familiarized - 7.0

Form reps - 266, 

Form time (min.) - 742,

“Mastery” recite (min.) - 101

Blogs - 43